Hah. The feelings of getting back into the void. I don't hate it, I'll tell ya that. I've missed being able to blog but haven't been able to because of various reasons, but the one that bugs me is that it wouldn't let me sign on and then I realized it was my fault because I forgot my sign in thingy. Oi. haha.
Life, right now, is all about routine for me. I mean, I've always been one for routine, but since all of my closest buds have graduated from Trevecca I've become a hermit...but I hate that word so I'm going to use the word "routiner" to replace it (even if it isn't a word). Life just...exists for me right now. I find no joy in school anymore, I'm so burnt out it's ridiculous. At least with my friends here I could get by. When we were sophomores, my friends and I believed school was just hanging out and having a blast with your pals. Well....if that's the case, school sucks big time for me now. Classes are okay, I mean there going fine. I struggle to go to two of them (Blann and my psychology class). Chapel has become a hardship too, I've become one of those people that sits in the very very very very back of chapel, ya know...the seats no one knew were there. Yep...life is...going. I've been going home on weekends a lot more...reminds me of freshman year. But I've been going home so much this year because of two reasons: no weekend life on campus, and because I love the church my mom and sis are going to. I've decided that when I graduate and live in Nashville...if everything goes according to "plan" (plan is like that because God has a sense of humor) then I'm going to be going to church there on Sundays. It's worth the drive, Erin actually was my inspiration.
The one thing my life consists of now, that has never been so bad in my life ever before, is I've become a movie buff. I have a netflix account so I go to my instant play and watch whatever looks good...if I love it, I buy it at McKay's. I have to buy another movie rack, that's how much my collection has grown. Which is also bad cause I'm spending money on movies I probably don't need. I should stop.
Well, I've been getting ready for Youth In Mission. I'm pretty stoked about it. I seriously can't wait, though my nerves are going crazy. I really want to do this, and I feel that I also need too. I want to more than I feel I should, but I really need to get out of my "comfort zone" especially the routine I've made here at school. No socializing here is going to effect me a lot when I go on the trip, I can already say that much. The only time I get to hang out and have fun is when my aunt comes over (which has been shot down) or whenever my best buds come up from Smithville.
So, that's life as it stands right now. Invigorating huh? Yea, I thought you'd go to sleep. Who can blame ya?